been walking for continuous 1 hour, had never walked so much before. i don't know what i want already, everything seem to be so lost so empty. i ask myself many times, is it me? why, i really don't know & i hate myself. i lost communication in this world, i don't understand everything that's happening. why is human so complicated. i always wanted to be good in every part of me but why everything i do doesn't seem to be an appreciation. am i doing too little or what? i really doing my best to maintenance a good r/s, why my effort doesn't seem to shown instead it's the opposite. every day i woke up thinking of how to be a good gf and i really work for it but why in the end things still turned out ugly & nasty. should i surrender to the ugly side of me which ive been trying to hide it well. Guess it's eating me so much i fighting with myself everyday. i just need a sincere i love you, a sweet kiss & a warm hug. why is it so difficult? i guess in conclude i just a lousy person in this world that doesn't deserved to be breathing the air and stepping on this land. i just need to be strong, i falling in every small little things.
i don't fit to be with anyone. i just a piece of shit.
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