Counting down

 

Counting down 4 more days to my 23rd birthday & 2 months to 2015.
Can't wait & gonna tick more bucket list in 2015!

心

有时候真的不知道自己的心里在想什么，要什么。
已经迷失方向，也许我只是在欺骗自己。
期望着有一天真的能找回真正的开心。
在心里的最深处有着一个永远没法浴疗的痛。
需要很多很多笑容来盖抹。

Life

10 months of 2014 had been a pretty up and down for me. Many things happened, but im sure all the good things are definitely more than those bad things happened to me. Irony, I'm thankful for all those down because I am happier than ever. Guess what I want now is enjoy all I can, travel as much as I can and having more me time. Learning to put down & moving forward can be the best feeling ever. 

Sidetrack a bit heading to Taiwan in 2 days time. Yay. & oh I did skydiving in June during Aus Trip. Best decision ever, and I missing the feeling. 

Goodbye

2 months & 2 weeks of waiting for an answer that I knew it will never come to me, I've decided to put everything to an end. Didn't expect that we will end it in this way. Maybe these three years of relationship are nothing to you. You will never know how much I've been fighting for these 3 years. Long ago, I could have given up on this relationship because of what you did to me last time, but I didn't. Time to time I've been giving chances and chances. But you didn't see it. I've been doing all I can to help you in all ways, making sure to make up your day after one whole day of work, supporting you no matter what and etc. But I will never be good enough for you. To you, I'm just someone who will throw temper, giving attitude, being stubborn and etc. Yes I admit, I'm not a perfect girlfriend, I do show attitude, throwing tantrum and etc.. But ask yourself, what caused me to did that? You should know the answer the best. And if I don't care about this relationship, will I even show attitude in the first place? You will never understand, how much I've been struggling for the past 3 years. I guess I am too naive to think that so long as we love each other, fight for each other and stand by each other even at the lowest point of time. Our love will last. I'm all wrong, we've been fighting and quarreling for too much. Or maybe we don't love each other as much as we thought? At the later stage of this relationship, I seem to be the one who did the clapping. I told myself its alright I know you wanted to focus on your career and even if you don't have time for me, I will do all I can to maintain this relationship. But slowly, you don't even appreciate my effort even you said you did, you can't see how much I wanted to keep this relationship going on. You said you are tired, I am even more tired than you. Yes I seem to be happy and smiling all the times, but inside me I am breaking down. That last day, you will never know why I am crying so hard. This is so heartbreaking for me, you should know yourself that we don't even have time to go on date. Just that one day of asking you to go out with me can seem to be so torture to you. Please think, do I even find excuses when you need my help? I already to the extend of not asking much in this relationship, why you just can't see that? From then till now, I never once shed any tear for you, I thought I just trying to be strong. Until later, I realized I don't feel anything for you at all and you are not worth for me to tear anymore. If you need that long to think whether you wanna keep this relationship for going on, then probably yes I'm not worth and you are not worth for me to keep fighting anymore. Maybe you are not even thinking, you are just so cruel and heartless to keep me hanging in the air. I need to put down that heavy stone in my heart, I need to move on. Goodbye three years of love, thank you for loving me before and I appreciate everything you did for me. I will keep those happy memories deep down in my heart. I guess you will be happier without me. Continue to fight for your career and one day you will find your true love. I loved you.

Time

It've been 37 days...

Flying off again

Will be flying off with this teddy bear & his family to hongkong later at night! hehe this is the third oversea trip w bf this year! glad that he is so busy with everything yet we still able to go for a holiday :3 hopefully next year will have chance to go oversea with him again hehe. 2013 coming to an end soon, first time ever counting down at other country. Christmas this year was nothing much as we spend our whole day at shop, and had a simple dinner at Paradise dyansty. On the eve had pot luck session with the poly cliques, secret santa & dinner session was really an awesome one hehehe. I must say 2013 was really an eventful year for both of us, okay shall write a post about it! Thanks bf for staying through with me no matter what and we will be reaching our 3 years in coming Jan :)

Ok till then bye hopefully hk is not as cold as what we think, really a headache to go holiday in winter as I dont like to wear like a dumpling :< but still can't wait to visit those tourist attraction! hehe bye.

Counting down

 

Counting down 1 more week to China, can't wait hehe mummy had been at there for 3weeks+ and im missing her badly. All the good food are waiting for me heheh, 10 days of freedom make me too excited :D oh look, its november already, 2 more months to end of 2013. I must say 2013 had been quite fruitfully, and I will be going to Hk w bf and his family on the end of Dec hehehe keep flying around. Hope every year can be like this :3 ok nothing much to update so some photos to kick this blog alive hehe. Birthday celebration with my dear tinghui, been knowing this girl for 15years? she is always such a sweet dear to me hehe. & some random meet up w dearest layyen. Oh that's the most fluffy dog I've met, too cute to be true.
I have yet to blog about the Spain trip, no idea what I've been busying with. 5 days at work, & 2 off days at bf shop. Miss those time dating with bf. :'(

 

 

 

back from Bangkok

been back from bkk for annual conference since 1 week ago. Though we went there for meeting but it's feel like mini getaway from Singapore & work hehe. The trip was pretty good and we had teacher day game over at chatuchak! If it didn't rain heavily, the game will be even more fun :/ glad everything went well, didn't shop much as i only had like less than 3hrs to shop? this sis of mine was so shocked over the clothes i bought because she didn't expect it to be so little ha ha ha ha. ok more photo soon, hopefully? :>

everything in my life went pretty alright? Still no dating w bf how sad, and the last time we went for movie was in july?!?! :'( but now whenever we are out of the shop to restock i will definitely pull bf for a good lunch over at restaurant or cafe hehehe. Time really flies, been together for 2years&8months, soon we are reaching our 3 years hehe. Pretty good, guess he is too tired that we hardly quarrel anymore ha ha good or bad? the most we only argue for like 5 mins ignore him for a while then back to normal again heh heh.

I guess that's all, counting down 2 more months to China! is my leave approve yet :/ i must go no matter what. I miss everyone, and oh the yummy food hehehehe. Really can't wait the food are all waiting for me :Q___  k bye kakaka.

Back from Spain

Hi! Ive been back to Singapore from Spain since 1 week ago. Been damn long since i type in this little space of mine. I must say, this 10 days trip to Valencia will be the most memorable ever. The first Europe trip with bf, the fifth oversea trip with bf and the third oversea trip by flight with bf! Hope there will be more to come hehe. Gonna miss everything about Valencia, the peace, the friendliness, the street, the architecture, the music, the coffee, and lastly the FOOD! Food at there was damn good, except for everything is too salty. I love how people at there took everything with patience and they are very slow pace. They can took 2-3 hrs for lunch/dinner, just sitting at there chilling and the waiter took very long to serve one dish. But still, great experience! We went to the Valencia City where i witness all the beautiful architecture, building, castle, Church and their culture. Each time I know we are going into the castle i got so hype because it is really very beautiful and when we went to the top, the view was breath catching. Then we went to nature park, which look like Macritchie Reservoir HAHA, but the pigeons at there damn cute hehehe. Have a boat ride at there to experience their history of how they do their living in the past by fishing and farming. We went to their band concert at a very classy concert hall. And we also went to a not-for-human carnival where I actually tried their bomber ride, which spin 360degree itself and the seats too. Not funny oh my god I don't really trust their safety especially at this type of carnival ha ha i was like thinking what if my safety belt fly up then you can say bye bye to me. D: There have this viking ship which the main attraction is the standing up in the cage at two end. Don't judge the book by its cover, we thought ok that's not really scary though it went up vertical at ALMOST 180 degrees. But this is even scarier than the bomber, because we were actually flying up when the ship went down. Everyone was like holding on to their life, MAKE ME ALMOST GIVE UP. For the next few days, we were complaining muscle pain in our hand and thigh. HAHA. We went to betera City where we visited the town council(?) in a castle. I was too amazed by it because the overall look and the wall seem so old, but inside there look so modern. Free and easy day, we went to their Art Science Museum (CAS), visited their science centre and sea aquarium! I think the only interest thing about their science centre was the spider man section where i went for the revolving chair ride. Worst choice ever, almost vomited after that. Sea Aquarium was meh, i think Singapore is prettier :x But they got birds and penguin in it so not too bad hehehehe. Lastly Lastly, congratulation to Philharmonic Winds for representing Singapore in getting 2nd price! Though all of them were disappointed for not getting first price, but still good job! hehe. I guess that's about it, will try to blog day by day for the trip if i got the time. Don't want to regret in future.

Some little updates, nothing special as usual. Officially 2 years at my company, unbelievable! Times flies, oh well. Life still as mundane as ever, and now bf got his own shop. No more dating for me, no more movie dates, no more hunting for good food at cafes, and i guess there will be hardly any chances for us to go oversea. Sigh. I know we all need to work hard now, but I don't think life should be filled up by work every single day and hour. Life is already too short to waste, i shall bug him to close on public Holiday HAHA. and I miss his home cook food seriously. ;(

Something to cheer me up, will be gg to china to visit my grandparents and relatives this coming November! damn happy, all the good food and village life. 1 week only will never be enough for me because for my past 21 years of my life, each time I went is 4-6 weeks. But now we can only make it for 1 week, how can it be enough for me. :< oh well. And my company annual conference will be at BKK in Sept, mixed feeling dk to look forward or no because we will be going for work after all.

Ok till then, bye bye. :3

June

June is here, & I have not been updating this little space of mine. I supposed to update CNY, updates on here & there, and so on. But I can't find any time to do so. No idea what I've been busy with. Oh this one whole month had been helping bf with his business. Literally running everywhere with him, even before start of my work. Waking up very early everyday & work all the way to night, of course im not as tired as bf but i still need my beauty sleep a lot. Lost count when was the last time we had movie, what i yearn now is just a simple date with him for one whole day without doing anything related with work. But i guess we cant, so just a movie i will be more than happy. I assume when his business started, no more dating for us forever, i guess. & i will be working 7 days oh man ha ha. But on a happier note, I will flying to Spain with bf for his band competition! Can't wait for it heh heh heh, I need a long long break. From Jan until now, except for the CNY block leave I have not been taking any leave nor MC. Even if i took MC, i still went back to work in the evening & this is how sad it is. I really need a break. Looking forward to the end of this year, Spain trip with bf, bkk trip for annual conference & i finally going to china again to visit my grandparents & relatives! Damn happy k my grandparents' village is the best way to escape from the busy city, having awesome meal for breakfast, lunch & dinner. Playing with dogs & cats, staring at those chickens & ducks all day long, disturb the cows, playing badminton for hours, looking at the locals farming the wheat & vegetables, lie down all day long watching all type of tv shows & there's too much thing to do just at the village. :3 I NEED ALL THESE RIGHT NOW, but i can wait! So for now, nothing much life is boring as usual. r/s was normal w bf guess because we were too busy settling so many things that we don't even have time to fight & quarrel ha ha ha. Still loving my sister so much, and just celebrate my daddy & brother's birthday. They are the love of my life heh heh. Work is normal too nothing much happening now. Tell me how boring my life is. Where's the excitement I looking for. okay I guess I getting a bit nagging so till then bye bye :3

Valentine Day

Valentine Day 2013

My valentine gift to bf, this was a surprise for him heh heh he totally didn't expect me to give him something! Hope he love my present HEHE :3 Passed him the present the night before the valentine because i got no idea how am i gonna hide it since i gg his house to stay over.

Super love this bear, smirks.

Went home to prepare the next day as bf have to teach first, daddy fetch me to sis's workplace while i waited for bf to end work.

Super love my eyelashes extension & this last me for 7 weeks damn exaggerated can.

As usual, chilling at her workplace & cam whore for non stop. My pretty sister, super love her hehehe.

Sister end work at 7.30pm & we head over to white rabbit for dinner didn't managed to reserved table as they were fully booked already so we have to wait for the table. Waiting time was about 1 hour so what we can do is to take photo for non-stop. Was super hungry by then already.

ok so the most epic things happened next! After we settle down at the table, sis and i went to the toilet first, and when we come back. our bfs was like eh there's some bad news for us. They only have Valentine Menu for that day, but there's nothing on Valentine Menu that looks appealing to us. Super sad k, why they didn't inform us earlier so that we don't have to waste our time to wait for nothing. >: Decided to leave & we went to hunt for other places. So after driving around, we went to Chijmes. Already totally no mood already and it was raining heavily too, super spoilt mood man. Anyway, we finally settle our dinner at Bobby's. Food was alright, but creme brulee was super awesome!

Atmosphere at there was quite peaceful oh man no Valentine feel at all! So a simple dinner to end our valentine day. Wanted to catch a movie after dinner but all of us were so full that we decided to just head home after that, stay over at bf house again teehee.

My valentine gift from bf, SK necklace! This bf bought it super last min, before our dinner he came to pick me up from sis's office and rushed all the way to PS to ask me to choose the design I like. Damn improtu but super big thanks to bf! Love it so much though it was last minute but it's the thought that count. <3>

So, finally this year Valentine ended well, because for the past two years we had our big quarrel on the valentine day itself, like some type of curse. Was worried that this year valentine will happened the same thing too but glad that nothing happened hehe cross finger, we break the curse smirks.

kbye.